Aug 24, 2012

lyrical health

i'm obsessed with this song. thank you, one tree hill.
i'd also be even more obsessed if a certain boy sang it to me.

Aug 21, 2012


my first day of college.
i am not going to lie and say i'm having the greatest time of my entire life and i'm so glad that i'm here alone. because truthfully, those are not my emotions at the moment. i'm trying this thing where i am completely honest on here. so there ya go.

but also i think i might survive this. probably. life is about balance and about adapting to things that are thrown at you. and the only way to grow, is to change.

my roommate barely speaks any english. she is straight from china and it's her first time in america. and i'm like WHAT? i can barely move 20 minutes away from my home without sobbing like a baby for hours on end.
it makes me feel like maybe my thoughts have been a little selfish lately.

a few facts:

i'm 95 percent sure that the vitamin water the university sent me in my welcome bag is the only thing that has kept me living.

maybe they should invest in university of utah segways to lug around the shamelessly out of shape freshmen like *cough* myself  *cough*

i will never understand people who wear top hats in public.  :/


but sometime, somehow, i'll grow into this.


Aug 14, 2012


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and all of the sudden, in a little more than 24 hours, i leave my house for good.
this place has been so good to me. i feel like sometimes on blogger i make my life seem like a struggle, but truthfully, i have been so blessed.

i dont want to leave my home.
i especially dont want to leave my room. this place has been my safe harbor on stormy days.
i literally grew up within these walls and it's been 10 years of heartache and triumph that have made me who i am. and it all started here.

now as i bawl my eyes out as my mother helps me pack up my room, i've realized that i shouldn't have been so eager to leave this place.

Aug 10, 2012


in the last 48 hours Amazon has graced me with these:

someone stop me.

Aug 9, 2012


so my roomates name is Yiwen. that's all i'm allowed to know about her.

i dont even know what to think about that.

well i move into my dorm in a week so it's like i'm practically starting college in a week. i am so nervy and scared but also so excited and happy all at once. i will be moving to a huge city where i litteraly know no one who lives remotely close to me. except my sister who is a good 15 minutes away. holler at me for being brave enough to actually go through with this, right? right. no one will know me, and that's kind of a thrill.

and lastly, my laptop will be coming in the mail shortly so you'll most likely be hearing and seeing a lot more from me and my everyday life in the next few months. because blogger will be my only friend.