complete the sentence...."i am..."
(sorry for all of you who are extremely confused with my numbering of the 30 day challenge days. i am too. 1236459 is apparently how the numbers in my head go. :/ i swear i'm not a nut case. butttttt today will be 7...ok? k cool.
I am... scared.
sooo scared for my future. i have no idea about even the slightest details of it. the only thing i'm certain of is the fact that i will be attending college next fall. but where? with who....? what do i even want to be when i grow up? will i even like my life in a year? .....what if it's lonely?
questions questions questions.
they run around in my mind all day, every day. in a time that i should be excited and making plans like the rest of my friends...nothing seems right for me. not with these people....not in that place. while my best friends sign up for housing and start saving money for college...i dont even know where i'll be in 7 months or if i'll be there alone. although that IS my choice, it is because nothing has felt right yet. i guess its not necessarily that it hasn't felt right, its that everything else i've planned has felt so wrong.
i think its because i am awful at making decisions when i know that they can impact the rest of my life. but i also think that maybe, just maybe...its because there is specific place that i'm meant to be. and i definitely don't want to make the wrong decision, and have regret follow me to college. not when i'm banking on this so much to change things for me.
i just wiiiiiissshhh i could go back to the ending of last summer. (insert picture at top)
because there was still time to have fun and just figure it out on the way through senior year.
but i'm scared, because i thought i'd have it figured out by now.Scroll to Top