Oct 22, 2012


singles ward quote of the day:

"Come to ward prayer! THATS WHERE I MET MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!"
*shiver runs up my spine*

Oct 21, 2012


so obviously i took a month or two off from blogging. i can't really decide if it was intentional or not.
so whatever.

but i was right about one thing.... i do NOT deal well with change. if i'm just gonna cut to the chase, my personal experience with the first few weeks of college was hellish.

i had legitimate panic attacks on the regular. (anxiety is REAL)
i developed sores in my mouth.
i couldn't sleep.
headahces were my best friend.
i didn't even EAT.
i had 1 friend.
i got OCD up the ying yang.
i would've cried myself to sleep every single night if it weren't for netflix and my foreign roommate. (i didn't want to make her uncomfortable. ya know, living with some crazy american who didn't speak her language and was emotionally unstable. bless her heart, because i would've cried myself right into dehydration and DEATH.)

no, but all exageration and self pitty aside, it was the hardest thing i've ever done; to move away from all things familiar. my friends and especially my family. i never knew how much i really do like those guys. BUT, don't worry, there is a but. but as of late, i've gradually been settling into my new life over here. i have like 5 friends now..... hahaha. kind of kidding, kind of not. i got a grip on reality and realized that a healthy lifestyle doesn't just make you physically healthy, but healthy in the noggin too. sometimes i eat salads and i go to zumba twice a week. like ummmm WHAT? yes. we're talking about michelle here. its kind of kept the freshmen 15 at bay, so it's only like a freshmen 3 as of right now. we'll see how that goes when finals creep up on me though.

also, the U is a unique place.

my drug and behavior professor wears gym shorts, socks and sandals every day to class. his last name is cooperdider. it's fine.

i'm 95% sure that i'll die prematurely from 2nd hand smoke inhalation.

asians are really nice.

my long lost cousin works at the cafeteria and almost tried to hit on me. awkward party of ME.

pac 12-shmac 12. our football team is pretty bad. i'm guessing. i actually don't really know, so disregard that.

one of my roommates is really drunk and scream-crying in the bathroom as i type this. i don't really know what to do besides this

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sorry this post is so weird, it's 4:30 in the morn and i can't sleep. so here are some funnies:

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Aug 24, 2012

lyrical health

i'm obsessed with this song. thank you, one tree hill.
i'd also be even more obsessed if a certain boy sang it to me.

Aug 21, 2012


my first day of college.
i am not going to lie and say i'm having the greatest time of my entire life and i'm so glad that i'm here alone. because truthfully, those are not my emotions at the moment. i'm trying this thing where i am completely honest on here. so there ya go.

but also i think i might survive this. probably. life is about balance and about adapting to things that are thrown at you. and the only way to grow, is to change.

my roommate barely speaks any english. she is straight from china and it's her first time in america. and i'm like WHAT? i can barely move 20 minutes away from my home without sobbing like a baby for hours on end.
it makes me feel like maybe my thoughts have been a little selfish lately.

a few facts:

i'm 95 percent sure that the vitamin water the university sent me in my welcome bag is the only thing that has kept me living.

maybe they should invest in university of utah segways to lug around the shamelessly out of shape freshmen like *cough* myself  *cough*

i will never understand people who wear top hats in public.  :/


but sometime, somehow, i'll grow into this.


Aug 14, 2012


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and all of the sudden, in a little more than 24 hours, i leave my house for good.
this place has been so good to me. i feel like sometimes on blogger i make my life seem like a struggle, but truthfully, i have been so blessed.

i dont want to leave my home.
i especially dont want to leave my room. this place has been my safe harbor on stormy days.
i literally grew up within these walls and it's been 10 years of heartache and triumph that have made me who i am. and it all started here.

now as i bawl my eyes out as my mother helps me pack up my room, i've realized that i shouldn't have been so eager to leave this place.

Aug 10, 2012


in the last 48 hours Amazon has graced me with these:

someone stop me.

Aug 9, 2012


so my roomates name is Yiwen. that's all i'm allowed to know about her.

i dont even know what to think about that.

well i move into my dorm in a week so it's like i'm practically starting college in a week. i am so nervy and scared but also so excited and happy all at once. i will be moving to a huge city where i litteraly know no one who lives remotely close to me. except my sister who is a good 15 minutes away. holler at me for being brave enough to actually go through with this, right? right. no one will know me, and that's kind of a thrill.

and lastly, my laptop will be coming in the mail shortly so you'll most likely be hearing and seeing a lot more from me and my everyday life in the next few months. because blogger will be my only friend.